OK...here we go again. I totally threw the towell in this fall and ate to the point I felt like crap. I was disappointed in my weight gain but not surprised. How could I be, I ate whatever and whenever. But, this time, I am ready. There is no way I can stay this weight and be happy because I feel out of breath and just bad. So, I am doing Eat to Live. It's backed by Dr. Oz and I read about many success stories and I keep re-reading them to stay on track. I just started Monday and I have lost 4 pounds. I want to lose a total of 62!!! I used to be so in shape and I can't believe I got to this point. I look at myself and wonder what I would actually look like if I got back on track and went for it. I get bored with looks and cut my hair often or change the color but my daughter wants us both to donate it to Locks of Love. I have done it twice before and am actually at a length where I could do it again, but I told her I would wait for her. So, instead of changing my hair, I am going to change my body. Plus, I need to for my health and my children. I want to be able to run with them again and be a good role model with food. I saw my mom turn to food and I do the same thing, I want my kids to make better choices. I am 186 now. I was 190 two days ago, my highest ever, even when I am pregnant. I want to be 128 again. My first big goal is to get back to the 160s and then go in tens from there. Thanks for the support! I am positive I am going to need it. I feel like I am missing out without eating, I need to learn how to enjoy things without food. It's been a long time. THANKS!!!